My Spiritual Journey
The Day Father Took All My Fears Away
"I took the leap of faith from my shadow cliff of doubt.
All I left behind were the chains within my mind.
I felt something softly hold me, God's loving hands enfold me.
I knew the I AM within was the same I AM as Him.
At last I was homeward bound. My soul has leaped for joy
and finally I am wholly found."
by Ann Van Eps
How it all started:
When we are misled by false doctrines we let our imagination run wild and we experience many fears. When I was younger I use to be affraid of the dark, hell, and demons. There was a period in my life that I went through that terrified me, and it lasted for many years. I was affraid to close my eyes at night and go to sleep because I use to go into a trance where my body would freeze and would have a terrible time trying to get out of it. Later on I was able to move my fingers and would take me quite some time to get out of It. I was even afraid of going downstairs at night to get me a glass of water.
My out of body experiences would start by a piercing sound of bells ringing in my ears, and right after that, I use to hear many demons calling out my name, real loud, and would laugh at me as though my fear of them gave them great power and satisfaction. This use to happen to me on and off guite a lot, and it lasted for about five years.
In those days, I use to have crosses all over my room, on the wall, under my pillow, and around my neck, believing that they would protect me from my fears. But all those crosses could not protect me. When Christ said that we need to carry our cross daily, he did not mean around our necks. It took me many years of studying the Bible to realize this, because of the false doctrines that were instilled in me through the false teachings of the man made religions of this world.
This is why our heavenly Father took me up in the spirit the day He took all my fears away. To show me that I did not completely trust in Him (as I thought I did) if I let fears controll me. I will go into more details about this experience later on. Right now I want to focus on how it all started.
Sometimes, when my body would freeze while I lay in my bed at night, I would feel an unknown presence near me. One time I saw a demon taking the form of my dead grandmother and did something ungodly to me that I can not even mention here. It was very terrifying.
Another time, I would see a hallow spot on my bed as though someone invisible was sitting next to me while I lay in bed unable to move. This is why I believe I found a way to come out of my body and float in the air. So these terrifying beings would not be able to harm me. I use to float around the rooms in my house trying to reach my parents bedroom to wake them up so they can help me. But this did not work because they could not see me while I was out of my body. I even tried to turn the lights on and I could not because my finger would go right through the wall and I could not even feel the switch.
I use to think that I was going crazy, because in those days I had no knowledge of Out of Body Experiences. When I told someone about these horrified and strange periods in my life, they did not believe me. They use to tell me that they were just bad dreams. but they did not feel like dreams. While my body was frozen I was only able to open my eyes. I know the difference between a nightmare and the real thing, and believe me, what I had experienced was nothing like a dream. Later, when I did research on Out of Body Experiences, I found out than many others had gone through similar experiences as me.
From what I read, some can even induce an Out of Body Experience by training their minds through some kind of relaxation exercises. In my case, they just happened out of nowhere and I did not induce them since I did not know anything about them.
The day our heavenly Father took me up in the Spirit to show me that I did not have complete trust in Him, all my fears dissapeared. Since that day, I'm not even affraid of death.
Psa 34:1-22 ¶ [[[A Psalm] of David, when he changed his behaviour before Abimelech; who drove him away, and he departed.]] I will bless the LORD at all times: his praise shall continually be in my mouth. 2 My soul shall make her boast in the LORD: the humble shall hear [thereof], and be glad. 3 O magnify the LORD with me, and let us exalt his name together. 4 I sought the LORD, and he heard me, and delivered me from all my fears. 5 They looked unto him, and were lightened: and their faces were not ashamed. 6 This poor man cried, and the LORD heard him, and saved him out of all his troubles. 7 The angel of the LORD encampeth round about them that fear him, and delivereth them. 8 O taste and see that the LORD is good: blessed is the man that trusteth in him. 9 O fear the LORD, ye his saints: for there is no want to them that fear him. 10 The young lions do lack, and suffer hunger: but they that seek the LORD shall not want any good thing. 11 Come, ye children, hearken unto me: I will teach you the fear of the LORD. 12 What man is he that desireth life, and loveth many days, that he may see good? 13 Keep thy tongue from evil, and thy lips from speaking guile. 14 Depart from evil, and do good; seek peace, and pursue it. 15 The eyes of the LORD are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry. 16 The face of the LORD is against them that do evil, to cut off the remembrance of them from the earth. 17 The righteous cry, and the LORD heareth, and delivereth them out of all their troubles. 18 The LORD is nigh unto them that are of a broken heart; and saveth such as be of a contrite spirit. 19 Many are the afflictions of the righteous: but the LORD delivereth him out of them all. 20 He keepeth all his bones: not one of them is broken. 21 Evil shall slay the wicked: and they that hate the righteous shall be desolate. 22 The LORD redeemeth the soul of his servants: and none of them that trust in him shall be desolate.
What is an OOBE?
There is only one way in which we can be given information about what it is like in the Spirit world. That information has to come first hand from someone who has already crossed over. There are a few different ways in which someone can go to the Spirit world, or "cross over to another demention": either temporarily through some type of out of body experience or expansion of consciousness; and even permanently through death."
I would not recommend trying to induce them, because you might open the door to the wrong side and allow evil spirits to pass through.
OBE OOBE The Out of Body Experience FAQ Contents: http://brain.web-us.com/oobe/oobe.htm#What%20is%20an%20out-of-the-body%20experience?
The Day I was BORN AGAIN in The Spirit:
Eze 3:14 So the spirit lifted me up, and took me away, and I went in bitterness, in the heat of my spirit; but the hand of the LORD was strong upon me.
When I was going through those teriffying periods in my life, I was not on drugs, or any kind of medication. They just happened on their own. Neither did I induce them since at that time knew nothing about OOBE's. The day Father took all my fears away I had a different kind of an out of body experience. This time, I did not hear the ringing of bells, but instead I heart sounds of many waters. This out of body experience did not happen at night either, it happened in the middle of the day while I was relaxing with my back leaning against my bed frame.
Rev 14:2 And I heard a voice from heaven, as the voice of many waters, and as the voice of a great thunder: and I heard the voice of harpers harping with their harps:
The day God's Spirit lifted me up and took me away, was a completely differend experience than the previous ones. This time I was taken out of my house and was flying high in the air feeling a breeze on my face, while at the same time I started picking up speed towards the heavens. I got scared and came back into my body. A couple of days later it happened again, and this time I was not affraid.
As I was picking up speed I could see the whole world under me. I could see people in the streets, I could hear them speak and could understand each and every one of them, no matter what language they spoke. I could hear them all at the same time, yet it was not confusing. Then I realized how our heavenly Father can see and hear us all at the same time and know exactly who said what, when, and where.
Father heard my cries for help and answered my prayers. When we ask Father to guide us to the right path and believe that He hears our cries, everything is possible (Mark 9:23). But when we have doubts, even little doubts, He can not help us. Christ was right when he said in (Mark 11:24) "Therefore I say unto you, What things soever ye desire, when ye pray, believe that ye receive them, and ye shall have them."
When I was taken up in the spirit, it felt that I was in Father's bosom, that I was finally home and safe. It was a feeling that I can not completely express through words. I felt the warmth of His embrace, I felt love all around me, I felt a kind of peace that can not be experienced in this world. The true peace that only comes from above, as Christ has taught us.
Jhn 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.
Lev 26:6 And I will give peace in the land, and ye shall lie down, and none shall make you afraid: and I will rid evil beasts out of the land, neither shall the sword go through your land.
This was THE DAY I received God's kingdom in me. The day of my anointing. The day "I was born again from above." As it is written!
Luk 17:20 And when he was demanded of the Pharisees, when the kingdom of God should come, he answered them and said, The kingdom of God cometh not with observation: 21 Neither shall they say, Lo here! or, lo there! for, behold, the kingdom of God is within you.
Jhn 3:3 Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.
Father took me up in the spirit to show me that praying to man made things, like crosses, who have no breath in them and can not see, hear, or move, can not save me. What can save me is having complete trust in HIM, to seek His Face, and not on man made idols that have no life in them. All those crosses I have placed in my room for protection, while I was going through those terfiffying moments in my life, could not save me from my fears.
Act 17:29 Forasmuch then as we are the offspring of God, we ought not to think that the Godhead is like unto gold, or silver, or stone, graven by art and man's device.
As it is also written!
Deu 11:16 Take heed to yourselves, that your heart be not deceived, and ye turn aside, and serve other gods, and worship them;
Deu 13:4 Ye shall walk after the LORD your God, and fear him, and keep his commandments, and obey his voice, and ye shall serve him, and cleave unto him.
Isa 2:8 Their land also is full of idols; they worship the work of their own hands, that which their own fingers have made:
Psa 135:15 The idols of the heathen are silver and gold, the work of men's hands.
Rev 9:20 And the rest of the men which were not killed by these plagues yet repented not of the works of their hands, that they should not worship devils, and idols of gold, and silver, and brass, and stone, and of wood: which neither can see, nor hear, nor walk:
Many still worship man made things. This world is full of crosses, icons and statues of man made saints molded by their hands and worshiped with their heathen imaginations. God is spirit and they that worship Him worship Him in SPIRIT and TRUTH.
The day God took me up in the spirit I did not see His face, but I did feel His unconditional love and His presence was felt all around me. It was so breathtakingly beautiful and peaceful that i did not want to come back to my body. But i guess Father had other plans for me, so i was brought back.
(John 1:18) No man hath seen God at any time; the only begotten Son, which is in the bosom of the Father, he hath declared him.
Yahshua (Jesus) is the true son of God. Yahshua is the embodiment of our heavenly Father. This is why God said "Let us make man in our image and likeness" Everyone who is Born Again from Above will see Him as he is because they too will become just like him. This is the true meaning of the word "Being born again from above". And this is why Christ said 'if you have seen me you have seen the Father.'
(John 14:20) At that day you will know that I am in my Father, and you in me, and I in you.
(1 Timothy 2:5) For there is one God, and one mediator between God and men, the man Christ Jesus;
2Ch 7:14 If my people, which are called by my name, shall humble themselves, and pray, and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways; then will I hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.
Do not allow fear take control over you. We should always have complete trust in our heavenly Father (with no doubts whatsoever), and in His Son and our Lord Jesus Christ! Amen!!!
Father asked me "Why do you have fears, don't you have complete trust in me?". He also said these words "Seek my face!", "Who do you choose to have control over you, me or fear?" That was the day Father opened my eyes and from that day onward I have accepted correction from Him.
Thank you Abba for correcting me and for giving me a wider understanding of the happenings around me! Thank you also heavenly Father for revealing these things to us with your unconditional love you show to those who choose to have complete trust in thee. And Father, I pray that you spread your love, mercy, and knowledge to all those who seek your presence as you did with me. In the name of our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, Amen!